Bryan came up this past weekend

Here he is pretending to be a Guitar Hero rock star:

The time that I've taken, I hope it's not wasted

Finally getting in the swing of things :)

Transitions, transfer student, transformations

"The first few weeks of school have been a little more difficult than I thought they would be," is what I've been telling everyone who asks how this transition is going for me. But the truth is that this past month has been extremely difficult... harder than my most dramatic days at Ricardo (I know it's hard to believe!) I'm pretty sure I called Bryan crying at the end of every day for at least two weeks straight, and I've can't remember ever feeling so all-around defeated in a long time! A few positive changes happened this past weekend that have lightened up my schedule and a few worries I have going on, so I think this week has been pretty good so far.

On a positive note, I started thinking these last couple days about how this transition has affected my relationship with Bryan. Taking into account the weird/freaked-out phase we went through right before England, the time that I was in England, the few days I was back, and then being away this past month, it's not only brought a load of new challenges to my life but to our relationship too. But I am incredibly amazed at how much I think our relationship has also transformed throughout these experiences so far, he's been the most incredibly supportive boyfriend I could ever image, and I am in love with him more than I can ever explain! I am the luckiest girl on earth!

I can't even explain what I've been through

Tonight is the first night I've turned my phone off in a long time. Not because it keeps ringing, but because I'm afraid it won't for the rest of the night.

Nobody trips over mountains

It's the small pebbles that cause you to stumble.

Well, I'm one week into this new chapter of my life, new place to live, new school, new city, finding new friends, new job. It is so overwhelming and I am having a really hard time adjusting, especially without my sweetie to come home and cry to after a rough day.

But I have thought about this decision over and over again for the last half year and I know it is the right thing to do in the long run. Cut myself off from a job that consumes me and holds me back because I don't have a degree, change schools to be away from the distractions and to put myself in an environment that I will enjoy, force myself to meet new friends and have a support system...

It's so hard to see this is a step forward through the day to day difficulties.

More to come, I have a lot of new challenges but I have to focus on school. After all, this is my second chance to get it right and start with a clean slate.