Sappy love songs and ice cream

Yesterday...
Novi to Dearborn to have lunch with Rau
Deaborn to Troy to see CGC people
Troy to Ann Arbor to see BGS and CE for dinner and ice cream
and then back home to sleep in my own bed.

I wasn't feeling up-to-par yesterday but I thought a little sleep and a new day would cure that. I woke up today feeling the most mopey I think I've felt since the breakup. Just a collection of thoughts I guess, and everything put together is just a little frustrating.

Today would have been our 2 1/2 year anniversary.

Quotes of my favorite boss

Are you late because you were on www.MySpaceBook.com or are you going all Lindsey Lohan on us?

Ocean Spray called and they want their cranberries back (after see a 3 liter jug of cranberry juice on my desk).

Let's start a new tradition everyday. Let's play a game where you, me, and Joe guess what time we each went to bed and what time we each got to work (it turned out that day that Joe went to work at 3:30am and I had gone to bed at 2:00am).

Tomorrow is IT spring cleanup day so you can wear your Jordache jeans to work if you want.

(In the middle of a meeting where I was drinking a tiny container of Danimal yogurt smoothie, he takes it from my hand and interrupts the meeting) Ha ha ha, me thirsty, me drink tiny smoothie!

If you can't get the purchase order shipped on time, you owe me 20 Coke bottle cap codes.

This relationship has become detrimental to my health

We had fire in our eyes
In the beginning I
Never felt so alive
In the beginning you
You blame me but
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't wanna hear it anymore

I swear I never meant to let it die
I just don't care about you anymore
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't care about you anymore

We had time on our side
In the beginning we
We had nothing to hide
In the beginning you
You blame me but
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't wanna hear it anymore

I swear I never meant to let it die
I just don't care about you anymore
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't care about you anymore

You say that I didn't try
You say that I didn't try
You say that I didn't try

I swear I never meant to let it die
I just don't care about you anymore
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't care about you anymore

We had fire in our eyes

Work was good today, as usual. I still have my little daily peeves with certain people *ahem* but I did a little coffee run with Courtney this morning because 7am to 7pm McDonald's has free coffee :) It's the smaller things that seem to make me especially happy right now.

I was thinking about my Chinese speaking abilities during class today (or rather, my lack of). I've developed some bad habits that stop me from learning Chinese progressively. Like when my mom and I talk to each other, I'll say a word in English if I can't think of it in Chinese. Or when I'm trying to get a thought out fast (we all know I have too much to say), I can't arrange the words in the same order as it is in English so I get frustrated and just say it in English. And most of all, I don't talk to anyone but my mom in Chinese unless I'm in Taiwan. I dunno.

Anyway, Chinese class wasn't even awkward with D until afterwards when we got in an argument about my broken bumper which ended in him calling me a bitch (I know he didn't mean it). I stormed off and came ridiculously close to getting in an accident with cars on both my right and left sides, one driving towards me, and I think that's when I started crying again.

I went for a power run with my baby doggie when I got home. I don't know why. I deeply hate running too, but I guess I was already so sweaty and my adrenaline was going it didn't even matter because I felt like I'd been running already. I must be super out of shape too, because I had a little trouble keeping up with my tiny 8 lb. dog. Gotta work on that, hahaha.

On another "good small things" note, my Tyrone Wells CD came in the mail today and it is just as good as I'd hoped!

I swear I never meant to let it die

Well, here I am again. Single. Oh wait a sec, what am I saying, I haven't been single in years. Ha.

I've been scrubbing this blog clean for the last few days to get ready to make it public again. Yeah I've been a little bit bitter, I think, so it was worthwhile to take the blog off line. Plus this is something to channel all of my energy into :)

A lot has been going on - work is keeping me pretty busy and I've been spending a bit of time with some new friends from work in Ann Arbor, which has been real awesome. Something new, you know? Thing only thing is that I am once again the baby of the group and just so happen to be the only one under 21 :( But I'm getting used to thinking about this ahead of time so I don't keep bogging people down.

At the Ann Arbor Art Fair I went to a few weeks back, we watched Tyrone Wells in concert. It was the first I'd heard of him but I bought the CD online :) His song "Sea Breeze" has got to be the most romantic song I've ever heard, hands down. I also really like "No Good Without You".

I spent the evening with CE, BGS, DB, and his girlfriend EL moving the guys into their new condo. I didn't wallow as much as I thought I would today. As a matter of fact, I had a lot of fun and it definitely took my mind off of everything. But here I am again at home, listening to sappy love songs, and feeling a bit of the break up aftermath. And I was just thinking of everything we've been planning: Cedar Point, Chinese classes, Catherine's wedding reception (which I RSVP'd for for him to come as my date already), Zoo Day, our talks about the Chicago trip, Sushi House... And I guess this also means no reunion of our gang this year, which upsets me.

I don't know if this was the right decision because I love and care so much about him, but I just can't handle a relationship anymore.