Ummm sorry bloggy

I have started several posts this past week that have all been saved as drafts because I haven't had time to finish them!

I just have a confession to make: I am honestly frightened by my workload for this week!

I'll finish and publish the other entries this weekend.

You're so naive, you're so

There are a few things I wish I understood more of and don't know if taking classes at school is helping (or will help). Also, most professors, books, news, radio are all bias (on politics). Oh and, while filing my taxes recently, I looked at my year-to-date and could not believe how little of it is left! Ahh!

- All politics and political terms (I'm watching the State of the Union address)
- Credit cards and how credit works
- Taxes, not necessarily how to file them
- How to manage my finances

I'm having a hard time balancing responsibilities. I keep convincing myself (while I'm sitting at my desk at work) I have time for everything they're loading up on me at work, then when I'm at school planning out my studies, I make myself think I have time to focus on all my subjects too. I end up with too much on my plate and spend most of my time worrying about how I'll get things done. Engineering the plan, as they say. I dunno.

Just don't let me down

My weekend:
Friday - Auto Show
Saturday - Monster Jam
Sunday - UKC dog show

I'll post pictures another time. I lost my camera cord and my battery died at the auto show so I have to get a $7 disposable camera developed (some lady at a stand tried to sell me a disposable camera for $20!)

Panic is the new nighttime

School has started out great. I had a lot of trouble locking my schedule and classes in place, but I have some really great classes and really great professors this semester. My Econ professor seems to be a very cultured and aware person who has a very clear and concise teaching style, yy Comp professor is maybe as old as my grandma but has a very child-like spirit and a sense of humor, and my Political Science professor seems like a very involved person who thinks logically (so hopefully, teaches logically too). Like I mentioned before, I met some really cool people in my PoliSci class (one who turned out to be the little brother of an old friend's best friend!) and we now go on these weekly TGIFriday's outings after class every Thursday.

But despite how truly excited I am about my new classes and professors (except math, of course) and new buddies I've met, I have been sleeping terribly and having a hard time with myself.

I lay my head down on my pillows and then begin to panic while I try to fall asleep. A few nights ago, I was so overwhelmed with something on my mind that my body began to tense up and I started having uncontrollable muscle spasms in my legs. I felt like my arms were going numb, I started sweating, and my heart was racing. So finally I forced myself up to play with the puppy who was sitting in his little cagey next to me and watching me) until he dozed off, then I got some random paper on my dresser and started writing out my thoughts until I was too tired to write anymore.

I think I need a... what's the word? Something... some way of forcing myself to release all of this inside of me so that it doesn't eat me up when the only time I have to think about it is when I go to sleep. If I had the time and money, I would like to go back to train with Jay at his new school. But the program is not stable and I could see him easily moving the school in a few months (thinking that he has a better plan to make more money and get more students).

$1 reward for the answer

Must be at least 8 characters, but no more than 20 characters.
Must contain mixed case letters (upper and lower case).
Must contain a digit which cannot be in the first or last position.
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Must not contain a dictionary word greater than 3 letters.
Must not contain your name, initials, or email address.

You'd think this is a game, but no, it's the requirement for a password for an account for an internship I'm applying for! Ahhh! I spent a good 15 minutes trying to come up with a password (I gave up trying to come up with something similar to the rest of my passwords). The best part is, the password confirm-y thing doesn't tell you which of their rules you violate.

Amy was making a joke in Econ that maybe this is the test to see if a student is qualified enough or intelligent enough to even apply.