I just feel like talking, but to who?

There are so many things I'm frustrated about, but when it really comes down to it, I've got nothing to complain about except my self induced worries/fears, which really amount to nothing!

I've been mentioning this amazing philosophy class I've been taking. Each class builds on the last class, and the way the material is taught, it assumes that nobody has really proven any of their own beliefs to themselves. Does that make sense? For example, most people (at least at a college stage) believe/don't believe based on what they have grown up with and the experiences they have undergone.

In the first several classes, we discussed various philosophers' theories about the existence of God as a cause and creator. Only defining the term "God" as a placement for the meaning "a higher cause, that which nothing greater can be conceived, a cause and start to life, the immovable mover" and so on.

In the following classes, we based our discussions on what knowledge has been "proven" in our class. For example, after we defined and proved God only as a cause, we then defined God with qualities/traits. Following that, we then discussed the existence of evil, then the meaning of faith, then self's existence, and then the mind/matter differences.

Anyway, one class period when we were discussing the problem of evil, the prof asked us: if we have proven (in the last class) all the traits of God, including God being omniscient/omnipotent, why does evil (both natural and human induced) exist? Most people answered this by saying that evil is needed to prove good and to test faith in God. One kid raised his hand and explained that he thought people were generally good. He gave the example that he felt if he walked into class one day and he was injured, most people in the class would probably rush to help him instead of watch him suffer. And everyone in the class was all for this idea.

Then the prof caught me off guard when he asked this kid, and the class, "then why are there so many starving, homeless, unloved people out there if you claim that people were generally good?" Another classmate replied by saying we can only give so much before we dip into our own stash.

How much is too much? I mean there is so much around us that is evil and yet we still don't seem to get it.

Can we really, truly love humanity? Without expecting anything in return? I mean one is supposed to treat others the way you would like to be treated, but is that loving with an expectation of the same in return? And what if we never received anything from others while loving endlessly?

Can we truly love our neighbors, our humanity endlessly? If it is so that we can only give so much before we are jeopardizing our own well being, maybe this is really not possible.

Then there was the discussion of faith. There was a lot to this discussion. But in part, I've gathered that it seems like the same discussion as the word "Christian". One can never say that he/she is faithful or a Christian, because all it really is is striving to be faithful and striving to be Christian.

All these things to think about and I'm worrying about nothing, really.