I have started several posts this past week that have all been saved as drafts because I haven't had time to finish them!
I just have a confession to make: I am honestly frightened by my workload for this week!
I'll finish and publish the other entries this weekend.
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
You're so naive, you're so
There are a few things I wish I understood more of and don't know if taking classes at school is helping (or will help). Also, most professors, books, news, radio are all bias (on politics). Oh and, while filing my taxes recently, I looked at my year-to-date and could not believe how little of it is left! Ahh!
- All politics and political terms (I'm watching the State of the Union address)
- Credit cards and how credit works
- Taxes, not necessarily how to file them
- How to manage my finances
I'm having a hard time balancing responsibilities. I keep convincing myself (while I'm sitting at my desk at work) I have time for everything they're loading up on me at work, then when I'm at school planning out my studies, I make myself think I have time to focus on all my subjects too. I end up with too much on my plate and spend most of my time worrying about how I'll get things done. Engineering the plan, as they say. I dunno.
- All politics and political terms (I'm watching the State of the Union address)
- Credit cards and how credit works
- Taxes, not necessarily how to file them
- How to manage my finances
I'm having a hard time balancing responsibilities. I keep convincing myself (while I'm sitting at my desk at work) I have time for everything they're loading up on me at work, then when I'm at school planning out my studies, I make myself think I have time to focus on all my subjects too. I end up with too much on my plate and spend most of my time worrying about how I'll get things done. Engineering the plan, as they say. I dunno.
Just don't let me down
My weekend:
Friday - Auto Show
Saturday - Monster Jam
Sunday - UKC dog show
I'll post pictures another time. I lost my camera cord and my battery died at the auto show so I have to get a $7 disposable camera developed (some lady at a stand tried to sell me a disposable camera for $20!)
Friday - Auto Show
Saturday - Monster Jam
Sunday - UKC dog show
I'll post pictures another time. I lost my camera cord and my battery died at the auto show so I have to get a $7 disposable camera developed (some lady at a stand tried to sell me a disposable camera for $20!)
Friday, January 19, 2007
Panic is the new nighttime
School has started out great. I had a lot of trouble locking my schedule and classes in place, but I have some really great classes and really great professors this semester. My Econ professor seems to be a very cultured and aware person who has a very clear and concise teaching style, yy Comp professor is maybe as old as my grandma but has a very child-like spirit and a sense of humor, and my Political Science professor seems like a very involved person who thinks logically (so hopefully, teaches logically too). Like I mentioned before, I met some really cool people in my PoliSci class (one who turned out to be the little brother of an old friend's best friend!) and we now go on these weekly TGIFriday's outings after class every Thursday.
But despite how truly excited I am about my new classes and professors (except math, of course) and new buddies I've met, I have been sleeping terribly and having a hard time with myself.
I lay my head down on my pillows and then begin to panic while I try to fall asleep. A few nights ago, I was so overwhelmed with something on my mind that my body began to tense up and I started having uncontrollable muscle spasms in my legs. I felt like my arms were going numb, I started sweating, and my heart was racing. So finally I forced myself up to play with the puppy who was sitting in his little cagey next to me and watching me) until he dozed off, then I got some random paper on my dresser and started writing out my thoughts until I was too tired to write anymore.
I think I need a... what's the word? Something... some way of forcing myself to release all of this inside of me so that it doesn't eat me up when the only time I have to think about it is when I go to sleep. If I had the time and money, I would like to go back to train with Jay at his new school. But the program is not stable and I could see him easily moving the school in a few months (thinking that he has a better plan to make more money and get more students).
But despite how truly excited I am about my new classes and professors (except math, of course) and new buddies I've met, I have been sleeping terribly and having a hard time with myself.
I lay my head down on my pillows and then begin to panic while I try to fall asleep. A few nights ago, I was so overwhelmed with something on my mind that my body began to tense up and I started having uncontrollable muscle spasms in my legs. I felt like my arms were going numb, I started sweating, and my heart was racing. So finally I forced myself up to play with the puppy who was sitting in his little cagey next to me and watching me) until he dozed off, then I got some random paper on my dresser and started writing out my thoughts until I was too tired to write anymore.
I think I need a... what's the word? Something... some way of forcing myself to release all of this inside of me so that it doesn't eat me up when the only time I have to think about it is when I go to sleep. If I had the time and money, I would like to go back to train with Jay at his new school. But the program is not stable and I could see him easily moving the school in a few months (thinking that he has a better plan to make more money and get more students).
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
$1 reward for the answer
Must be at least 8 characters, but no more than 20 characters.
Must contain mixed case letters (upper and lower case).
Must contain a digit which cannot be in the first or last position.
Must contain a special character such as #$!&*@() which cannot be in the first or last position. Do not use the 'less than' or 'greater than' symbols (< >).
Must not contain a dictionary word greater than 3 letters.
Must not contain your name, initials, or email address.
You'd think this is a game, but no, it's the requirement for a password for an account for an internship I'm applying for! Ahhh! I spent a good 15 minutes trying to come up with a password (I gave up trying to come up with something similar to the rest of my passwords). The best part is, the password confirm-y thing doesn't tell you which of their rules you violate.
Amy was making a joke in Econ that maybe this is the test to see if a student is qualified enough or intelligent enough to even apply.
Must contain mixed case letters (upper and lower case).
Must contain a digit which cannot be in the first or last position.
Must contain a special character such as #$!&*@() which cannot be in the first or last position. Do not use the 'less than' or 'greater than' symbols (< >).
Must not contain a dictionary word greater than 3 letters.
Must not contain your name, initials, or email address.
You'd think this is a game, but no, it's the requirement for a password for an account for an internship I'm applying for! Ahhh! I spent a good 15 minutes trying to come up with a password (I gave up trying to come up with something similar to the rest of my passwords). The best part is, the password confirm-y thing doesn't tell you which of their rules you violate.
Amy was making a joke in Econ that maybe this is the test to see if a student is qualified enough or intelligent enough to even apply.
Friday, January 12, 2007
Here's where I'm at right now
My first week of school:
Monday - There was an accident on 275 so I was 30 minutes late to class, it took me another 10 to get a parking space, and I finally found room 1041 for my math class. Right? There is of course only one seat at the very front of the room available, and a girl has her pink purse on it, so I shuffle through the isle in front of everyone and ask if I can sit there. Ten minutes later, I finally tune into the professor (old asian guy) and he's like "Another good reason to study child development is..." and I'm like "hmm... definitely not math class". So I left to find my other class and there was only a few minutes left of that, so I basically didn't go to class.
The composition teacher I always complain about gave me an "NC" in her class, and I could not figure out why for the life of me. I emailed/called her dozens of times over break but could not get ahold of her. When I finally ran into her on Tuesday, I had to explain to her I could not take the next level of composition because of her "NC". She said she had not received one of my papers. Okay 1-I emailed her all my papers in one file and triple checked it and 2-If you really do not receive a student's paper, you don't give them an NC, you just lower his or her grade. Today, she admitted she did not realize the file was attatched!
Tuesday - Because of this composition class madness, I had to change my schedule about 5 times while having to walk back and forth from my advisor's office to the Humanities office to the Registrar's office to Ms. I-lost-your-paper's office. I had classes until 6 and one class I am still waitlisted for (even though I'm attending anyway).
Wednesday - No classes, went to Ricardo all day.
Thursday - I had classes until 9, met this awesome girl named Guilliana in my PoliSci class and ended up eating a late dinner with her after class.
Fun forecast for this weekend?
- PCEP robotics meeting!
- Maybe shopping with mom and Fuyen
- Maybe lunch with Natalie
Monday - There was an accident on 275 so I was 30 minutes late to class, it took me another 10 to get a parking space, and I finally found room 1041 for my math class. Right? There is of course only one seat at the very front of the room available, and a girl has her pink purse on it, so I shuffle through the isle in front of everyone and ask if I can sit there. Ten minutes later, I finally tune into the professor (old asian guy) and he's like "Another good reason to study child development is..." and I'm like "hmm... definitely not math class". So I left to find my other class and there was only a few minutes left of that, so I basically didn't go to class.
The composition teacher I always complain about gave me an "NC" in her class, and I could not figure out why for the life of me. I emailed/called her dozens of times over break but could not get ahold of her. When I finally ran into her on Tuesday, I had to explain to her I could not take the next level of composition because of her "NC". She said she had not received one of my papers. Okay 1-I emailed her all my papers in one file and triple checked it and 2-If you really do not receive a student's paper, you don't give them an NC, you just lower his or her grade. Today, she admitted she did not realize the file was attatched!
Tuesday - Because of this composition class madness, I had to change my schedule about 5 times while having to walk back and forth from my advisor's office to the Humanities office to the Registrar's office to Ms. I-lost-your-paper's office. I had classes until 6 and one class I am still waitlisted for (even though I'm attending anyway).
Wednesday - No classes, went to Ricardo all day.
Thursday - I had classes until 9, met this awesome girl named Guilliana in my PoliSci class and ended up eating a late dinner with her after class.
Fun forecast for this weekend?
- PCEP robotics meeting!
- Maybe shopping with mom and Fuyen
- Maybe lunch with Natalie
Monday, January 08, 2007
I changed my title, okay?
My problem is, stability.
I hate that I've lost contact with genuinely good friends.
Spending time with certain friends over Christmas break and spending New Year's Eve/New Year's with D and both of us getting calls from drunk and hungover friends to come bail them out, I've determined I'm tired of friends like this. At one point, Dusan even asked me "Tammy, do you realize that what you're doing (names) probably wouldn't do this for you?" and it's true. I'm done with the moochers, the ignorant, the ones who constantly tell their parents they're with me when they're secretly hanging out with someone else... I'm sorry if you're offended, but I'm the one who is offended. I hate that I don't know how to surround myself with a great environment of people I can rely on.
On a seperate note, two huge debates I've been having with myself since Saturday, the 2007 Kickoff:
1. Whether or not to get back involved with robotics. This time as a mentor, instead of a student, and this time, with PCEP (a much more dedicated, self-motivated, impressive, and cooperative team) instead of Northville (which has the worst stability in a team that is possible and are rich, pompous asses). I miss the old 548.
2. I always get asked "When are you going to come work for us?" or "How come you're not already working for us?" by all the Bosch mentors. They always tell me they can snap their fingers and get me in, and I've always planned to end up there eventually. Ricardo is just a bridge for me to get where I want to go. I don't know why I'm not there yet, there's not reason for me not to be. I keep telling myself I get a much more personal experience at Rinc since it is so much smaller (and I know everyone), but I feel sort of like there isn't anything more for me here. I'm not going into IT, even though I love the tasks they give me, and JVA most definitely won't help me excel any more than he has already, if he has at all.
Claude even told me when we went out to lunch last week that he's "not by any means telling me to leave" but "it would be a good experience for you [me] to go to a large corporation and get a feel for that environment" and that "you can always come back here if you want, there will always be stuff for you to do here"
Am I read to make the move? This is always been a matter of "when" and not "if", but I always figured it would be a permanent move when my level of college education is much higher. There are still a few dream internships (I know that is the dorkiest thing I could possibly admit) I want to complete before I go to Bosch and try to make a place for myself there.
What I'm really looking forward to:
- A few more Pistons games coming up that we're going to
- Starting up some new classes and a new schedule
- My new obsession of selling things (like books) on www.amazon.com
- The North American International Auto Show!
I hate that I've lost contact with genuinely good friends.
Spending time with certain friends over Christmas break and spending New Year's Eve/New Year's with D and both of us getting calls from drunk and hungover friends to come bail them out, I've determined I'm tired of friends like this. At one point, Dusan even asked me "Tammy, do you realize that what you're doing (names) probably wouldn't do this for you?" and it's true. I'm done with the moochers, the ignorant, the ones who constantly tell their parents they're with me when they're secretly hanging out with someone else... I'm sorry if you're offended, but I'm the one who is offended. I hate that I don't know how to surround myself with a great environment of people I can rely on.
On a seperate note, two huge debates I've been having with myself since Saturday, the 2007 Kickoff:
1. Whether or not to get back involved with robotics. This time as a mentor, instead of a student, and this time, with PCEP (a much more dedicated, self-motivated, impressive, and cooperative team) instead of Northville (which has the worst stability in a team that is possible and are rich, pompous asses). I miss the old 548.
2. I always get asked "When are you going to come work for us?" or "How come you're not already working for us?" by all the Bosch mentors. They always tell me they can snap their fingers and get me in, and I've always planned to end up there eventually. Ricardo is just a bridge for me to get where I want to go. I don't know why I'm not there yet, there's not reason for me not to be. I keep telling myself I get a much more personal experience at Rinc since it is so much smaller (and I know everyone), but I feel sort of like there isn't anything more for me here. I'm not going into IT, even though I love the tasks they give me, and JVA most definitely won't help me excel any more than he has already, if he has at all.
Claude even told me when we went out to lunch last week that he's "not by any means telling me to leave" but "it would be a good experience for you [me] to go to a large corporation and get a feel for that environment" and that "you can always come back here if you want, there will always be stuff for you to do here"
Am I read to make the move? This is always been a matter of "when" and not "if", but I always figured it would be a permanent move when my level of college education is much higher. There are still a few dream internships (I know that is the dorkiest thing I could possibly admit) I want to complete before I go to Bosch and try to make a place for myself there.
What I'm really looking forward to:
- A few more Pistons games coming up that we're going to
- Starting up some new classes and a new schedule
- My new obsession of selling things (like books) on www.amazon.com
- The North American International Auto Show!
Maybe they just don't get got.
I haven't been on the computer for awhile or writing here, partly because I've been trying not to write when I only want to rant, and partly because I've just had so many other things to do in my free time.
My winter break started off on a great note (mostly because finals went so well), except I was also sick for most of break. Because you all love my lists and I am too lazy to write solid sentences:
- Annual family Frakenmuth trip to Bronners
- Christmas Eve with the Brhliks and the rest of the Hungarian gang
- Christmas at home with the family and Anna's family
- Lots of family games like Chinese Checkers, Jenga, and Extreme Jenga
- Cooked dinner with Yvonne
- Martinis and daiquris with the group (didn't have margarita glasses with me though)
- Playing "Santa" to Olivia and Antonia
- Goulash party/bonfire... outside in the middle of January
- Ate at Jim's restaurant, City Cellar, curtesy of Jim, the head chef :)
- Pool at Tom's with the group
- Bowling with the group (which I am terrible at)
My winter break started off on a great note (mostly because finals went so well), except I was also sick for most of break. Because you all love my lists and I am too lazy to write solid sentences:
- Annual family Frakenmuth trip to Bronners
- Christmas Eve with the Brhliks and the rest of the Hungarian gang
- Christmas at home with the family and Anna's family- Lots of family games like Chinese Checkers, Jenga, and Extreme Jenga
- Cooked dinner with Yvonne
- Martinis and daiquris with the group (didn't have margarita glasses with me though)
- Playing "Santa" to Olivia and Antonia- Goulash party/bonfire... outside in the middle of January
- Ate at Jim's restaurant, City Cellar, curtesy of Jim, the head chef :)
- Pool at Tom's with the group
- Bowling with the group (which I am terrible at)
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