I changed my title, okay?

My problem is, stability.

I hate that I've lost contact with genuinely good friends.

Spending time with certain friends over Christmas break and spending New Year's Eve/New Year's with D and both of us getting calls from drunk and hungover friends to come bail them out, I've determined I'm tired of friends like this. At one point, Dusan even asked me "Tammy, do you realize that what you're doing (names) probably wouldn't do this for you?" and it's true. I'm done with the moochers, the ignorant, the ones who constantly tell their parents they're with me when they're secretly hanging out with someone else... I'm sorry if you're offended, but I'm the one who is offended. I hate that I don't know how to surround myself with a great environment of people I can rely on.

On a seperate note, two huge debates I've been having with myself since Saturday, the 2007 Kickoff:

1. Whether or not to get back involved with robotics. This time as a mentor, instead of a student, and this time, with PCEP (a much more dedicated, self-motivated, impressive, and cooperative team) instead of Northville (which has the worst stability in a team that is possible and are rich, pompous asses). I miss the old 548.

2. I always get asked "When are you going to come work for us?" or "How come you're not already working for us?" by all the Bosch mentors. They always tell me they can snap their fingers and get me in, and I've always planned to end up there eventually. Ricardo is just a bridge for me to get where I want to go. I don't know why I'm not there yet, there's not reason for me not to be. I keep telling myself I get a much more personal experience at Rinc since it is so much smaller (and I know everyone), but I feel sort of like there isn't anything more for me here. I'm not going into IT, even though I love the tasks they give me, and JVA most definitely won't help me excel any more than he has already, if he has at all.

Claude even told me when we went out to lunch last week that he's "not by any means telling me to leave" but "it would be a good experience for you [me] to go to a large corporation and get a feel for that environment" and that "you can always come back here if you want, there will always be stuff for you to do here"

Am I read to make the move? This is always been a matter of "when" and not "if", but I always figured it would be a permanent move when my level of college education is much higher. There are still a few dream internships (I know that is the dorkiest thing I could possibly admit) I want to complete before I go to Bosch and try to make a place for myself there.

What I'm really looking forward to:
- A few more Pistons games coming up that we're going to
- Starting up some new classes and a new schedule
- My new obsession of selling things (like books) on www.amazon.com
- The North American International Auto Show!