Here I am again!

I haven't written in almost two years. Why? I don't know, I think I have battled and endured the most difficult feats in my life (so far) but there is a lot more to come soon. Quite honestly, I have bottled up the details of my life and allowed myself to feel shameful and frustrated for the person I think I have become.

This past year I have made a lot of mistakes and am dealing with my regrets. At the end of the day, I sit by myself confused about why I feel the way I do and I why I feel like I have nobody when really I have so many great people in my life.

I don't write anything because I don't feel I have anything of substance to write about. I don't stand behind my own decisions 100% and I don't allow myself to care enough to.

I don't know what will happen moving forward but one thing I do know - Whatever happens, whatever choices I make, whoever I include in my life, I will move forward with the mentality that I will only make decisions that I am prepared to back up 100% and I will live my life in a way that I can be proud of. No more toxicity in my life! No more regrets! No more half-assing!